She girds herself with strength, and strengthens herself daily. She perceives that her provision for her family is good: she does not retire early but works diligently to see to the needs of her family, she is not an idle woman. Proverbs 31:17, 18, 27
I just celebrated Mother's Day yesterday with my mother and Ava since I was working this past weekend. I have always appreciated my mother for everything she has done for me but this year I am lucky to have a whole new perspective on what Mothers Day means. I was thinking to myself that it was only about a week or so after Mother's Day last year that I learned that I would be a new mother. I must admit that this time last year that having a child was not at the top of the to do list for Jim and I. Part of the reason for this is because I had recently been told that I would not be able to get pregnant at this time. One day I was sitting in the break room at work when a fellow co-worker came in. His name is Carl and is known for his "psychic abilities." I am not a true believer in this but that is besides the point. He walked in and I jokingly asked him to read me. He looked me square in the eye and told me I was pregnant. I laughed and assured him that this was not the case. As the week went on I started to feel overly tired and even called my pharmacist to see if he could swap me back to the generic form of synthroid I had been taking for my thyroid. I noticed over the next couple of weeks that I was dreaming of having a baby. I wondered if there was any way I could be pregnant but decided to push the thought aside. Finally, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I decided to do this in secret, since I thought it was impossible at the time. There was no way! After several home pregnancy tests and blood work, I was finally convinced. I would be a new mom. My mind started racing with thoughts of how I would care for this little one. I did not know anything about being a mother or have the slightest idea how to care for one. After the fear passed I began to think of how wonderful it would be to have a baby. What would he or she look like? This truly was the biggest surprise of my life. Even though she might not have been in my plans at the time, she was meant to be. I am so thankful that God chose Ava for me. She is the greatest gift I have ever received. I never knew how much love I was capable of until I met her. Every day I learn something new. I may not be mother of the year but I do know that every morning I wake up wanting to be a better person for her. As a child, I always knew that I was loved by my mother and there was nothing she would not do for me. I can only hope that Ava will know this to. I am so grateful for my mother, my best friend, and the opportunity to build the same type of relationship with my daughter. Ava's smile was the greatest mothers day gift I could ever ask for!
I just celebrated Mother's Day yesterday with my mother and Ava since I was working this past weekend. I have always appreciated my mother for everything she has done for me but this year I am lucky to have a whole new perspective on what Mothers Day means. I was thinking to myself that it was only about a week or so after Mother's Day last year that I learned that I would be a new mother. I must admit that this time last year that having a child was not at the top of the to do list for Jim and I. Part of the reason for this is because I had recently been told that I would not be able to get pregnant at this time. One day I was sitting in the break room at work when a fellow co-worker came in. His name is Carl and is known for his "psychic abilities." I am not a true believer in this but that is besides the point. He walked in and I jokingly asked him to read me. He looked me square in the eye and told me I was pregnant. I laughed and assured him that this was not the case. As the week went on I started to feel overly tired and even called my pharmacist to see if he could swap me back to the generic form of synthroid I had been taking for my thyroid. I noticed over the next couple of weeks that I was dreaming of having a baby. I wondered if there was any way I could be pregnant but decided to push the thought aside. Finally, I decided to take a pregnancy test. I decided to do this in secret, since I thought it was impossible at the time. There was no way! After several home pregnancy tests and blood work, I was finally convinced. I would be a new mom. My mind started racing with thoughts of how I would care for this little one. I did not know anything about being a mother or have the slightest idea how to care for one. After the fear passed I began to think of how wonderful it would be to have a baby. What would he or she look like? This truly was the biggest surprise of my life. Even though she might not have been in my plans at the time, she was meant to be. I am so thankful that God chose Ava for me. She is the greatest gift I have ever received. I never knew how much love I was capable of until I met her. Every day I learn something new. I may not be mother of the year but I do know that every morning I wake up wanting to be a better person for her. As a child, I always knew that I was loved by my mother and there was nothing she would not do for me. I can only hope that Ava will know this to. I am so grateful for my mother, my best friend, and the opportunity to build the same type of relationship with my daughter. Ava's smile was the greatest mothers day gift I could ever ask for!
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